||[28 Nov 2005|08:44pm]
thanksgiving break was really good. i didnt update wishing anyone a happy thanksgiving, but i hope you all had one. everytime i talk to someone about their thanksgiving, they seem to mention how their family got into a fight about something. i am guilty, for my family too fought over stuff. i think it's funny that thanksgiving is a time when you're supposed to be thankful for everything, espicially your family, and most people [at least that i've talked to] ended up getting in some sort of fight.
i didn't go to school today. it was just one of those days where i couldn't bring myself to get ready. i actually got dressed and ready, but i felt so down and i couldn't put my mind to actually going to school. my mom let me stay home for two reasons. one of the reasons she let me stay home is because she knows how hard i've worked this year. i havent missed a day of school yet, and i've been really good about keeping up my grades. the second reason why she let me stay home is because of my dog, kaleb.
this morning when i was getting ready, my dog started acting really weird. like me, my dog is a creature of habit. since he has such distinct habits, it's easy for my mom and i to pick up on any change in attitude he has. he started shaking with a constant tremor, and he wasnt able to jump onto the bed or run up the stairs. i got really scared and started to cry [because i'm really attached to my dog] -- so my mom felt badly that i was so upset. my mom had a meeting in delaware at 10, so i went with her to that and sat in the car while she was in the meeting and did some of my homework. i got home around 11:20, and planned to go into school around 12:30. the reason i wanted to go into school is because i felt badly that heather had to play badminton by herself, and i was really bummed that i had to miss it because gym is seriously one of my favorite classes. so, my mom and i get home, and my dog is laying on the floor shaking. i freaked out and called the vet, and the soonest they could get him in was 2:00 pm. so, i stayed home the whole day. i layed in bed with my dog and held him for two hours. he stopped shaking after a while, but he looked weak and his eyes were really droopy.
we went to the vet and found out my dog probably had arthritis, and that bones in his back were probably weak. she said this was common in poodles, and she put him on this steriod. he has to be on the steroid for 15 days, and he's not allowed to climb up the stairs, jump on the bed, or do anything like that. we have to pick him up to do everything, and it's a hassle, but i'm thankful that nothing else was wrong with him. although this isn't amazing news, it's better to hear that it's arthritis, rather than some heart disease. (when we went to the vet in june, they said my dog had a small heart murmur)
so, i guess this is kind of late, but this thanksgiving, aside from a lot of other things, i'm thankful that my dog isn't deathly ill. i love him so much, and i can't imagine life without him. i have this weird thing about my dog and my dad. since after my dad died, my mom and i moved to pennsylvania, there arent really that many people that i assosiate with (besides my mom) that knew my dad. since my dog was alive when my dad was still healthy, my dog reminds me of my dad. although my dog doesnt understand, and might not even remember my dad, it is still a good feeling that my dog was around when my dad was.
i'm thankful for my best friends too. i feel like everyone gets annoyed when i talk about them, but i cant help it. i'm thankful that they stick by my side no matter what. this year has been kind of weird and shaky pertaining to my "best friend" issue, but things are they way they are supposed to be, i know it. this break i got to see my friends a lot, which was a lot better than just sitting at home and hanging out online. i'm not going to lie, there are some days when i just want to hang out in my PJs and chill, but this break wasnt like that, and i'm glad. I CANT WAIT TO GO TO NEW YORK CITY. i'm fucking ex-ci-ted. yessss.
since i dont make a 'christmas' list or a 'birthday' list anymore, i've made a personal things i want/need. i have a job, although i dont get paid THAT much, and i'm able to feed (somewhat) into my expensive habits. so far, i've decided i want/need three things. the first thing is a shower radio. mine broke a year and a half ago, and i still havent gotten a new one. shower radios are fun. secondly, i want a digital camera. mine is really, really shitty....and i think it's ridiculous that i work at a photography place and i dont have a nice camera. they're expensive, though, and i'm not up for making that huge purchase yet. LASTLY, i've recently fallen in love with a pair of marc jacob sunglasses. i frequent the store "solstice" in the king of prussia mall SO much that the people that work there know who i am? sadly, i'm not embrassed by this..although my friends might be. i tried on this pair on black friday, and almost cried before i had to take these off. i'll post a picture for you all to see under the cut.
i dont think i have anything else to say. i'm going to go take a shower and get ready for the week ahead of me. i've been sighing a lot lately. i heard that's a sign of anxiety. i'm not going to deny it, i'm getting kind of exhausted and nerved out about my grades, college, and other things. i guess it's just "that time of year."
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